My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.

And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.

The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.

My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.

So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.

But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

askdemilovatoxo wrote: Guys! She has a crush on me, isn't it obvious? I'm joking but whoever you do crush on next is a very lucky boy :)

askzozeebo:

askdemilovatoxo:

askzozeebo:

askzozeebo:

It was supposed to be personal Demi! You told everyone my secret. Yeah guys, she is my crush. Aw, thank you though.

Perfect idea, I would kill to have your clothes.

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I would kill to have yours! You can be edgy by wearing black and grey but then you wear something with a collar on it then you’re automatically girly again, it is amazing. Right, it’s a date then!

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My house. Tomorrow. 7pm. Bring a few outfits.

Yeah, we are definitely going on a date, how amazing is that! I’ll just bring  my favourite outfits with me and we will try them on. Time will fly fast.

Bring your camera aswell because we need a photoshoot to show others how amazing you’ll look in my clothes.

askdemilovatoxo wrote: Guys! She has a crush on me, isn't it obvious? I'm joking but whoever you do crush on next is a very lucky boy :)

askzozeebo:

askzozeebo:

It was supposed to be personal Demi! You told everyone my secret. Yeah guys, she is my crush. Aw, thank you though.

Perfect idea, I would kill to have your clothes.

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I would kill to have yours! You can be edgy by wearing black and grey but then you wear something with a collar on it then you’re automatically girly again, it is amazing. Right, it’s a date then!

My house. Tomorrow. 7pm. Bring a few outfits.

askpezzaedwards wrote: Hey Demi! :)

Hey sweetpea!

askdemilovatoxo wrote: Guys! She has a crush on me, isn't it obvious? I'm joking but whoever you do crush on next is a very lucky boy :)

askzozeebo:

askzozeebo:

It was supposed to be personal Demi! You told everyone my secret. Yeah guys, she is my crush. Aw, thank you though.

Oh my god, I would look so hot!

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Yes you would! You should come over, let me do that one day and you could return the favour aswell. 

askdemilovatoxo wrote: Guys! She has a crush on me, isn't it obvious? I'm joking but whoever you do crush on next is a very lucky boy :)

askzozeebo:

askzozeebo:

It was supposed to be personal Demi! You told everyone my secret. Yeah guys, she is my crush. Aw, thank you though.

Yeah guys, she is the protective type of person so we warn you. Don’t do anything that pisses her off. But you can tell she makes me happy. 

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Anything for my sweetie pie. Aw! Imagine us two together if we were lesbians.. I’d dress you up in my clothes, ha.

askdemilovatoxo wrote: Guys! She has a crush on me, isn't it obvious? I'm joking but whoever you do crush on next is a very lucky boy :)

askzozeebo:

It was supposed to be personal Demi! You told everyone my secret. Yeah guys, she is my crush. Aw, thank you though.

Yes guys we’re sorry to break it to you but we’re crushing on each other and if you try to touch her, I will not hesitate to scream till I get her back because as you know, I always win.

Someone talk to me please? I need to be saved from this boredom.

i would really like to talk to you or just answer you questions so inbox me!

askyourcalum:

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OOC

Heeey! I’m going to leave this blog. The reason for leaving is personal issues. I just need to step away from the internet a little. I love you all and I want to thankyou so much for making me smile when I’ve had down days. Thankyou!

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